So Far

Ok, I have decided to try this blogging thing. Who am I? I am a middle aged gay man in a midsized midwestern city who is trying to find purpose and direction in life hence the title of the Bemused Blogger as in how the @#!# did I get here and how do I get out and where to next?
Right now I am struggling to pay off debt and find a career goal/direction in life. My little inner voice keeps saying to write. I usually rollover and go back to sleep but eventually I have to get up and gosh darn it that little bugger is right back saying write! write! The thing is I grew up in the blue collar working class community of Granite City IL where mostly people followed in Dad's footsteps ( and Mom's if she worked which most didn't where I grew up but mine did. More on that later.) Forunately for me, my parents had the wisdsm to move into the neighborhood where the town professional types lived. Consequently, I attended a "good" elementary school where some bright eyed teacher decided I was college material without any input from me or my parents. The next thing I know I have gone througth 17 years of a mostly happy and uneventfull childhood until I graduated high school. Then it was off to the University of Illinois -UC and it is there that things really get interesting.
Anyway, I have decided to blog to develop my creative writing skills and to mull over the thoughts, ideas and feelings I have about my life, past and present. Although I expect there to be a lot of angst ridden kvetching, I hope you will bear with me. I think the ride and the destination will be enjoyable.