I am a believer in God. I see God as a powerful consciousness that is behind the creation of the universe as we know it. I have always believed in God. In fact I have believed in God so much that I have been angry at him ( I'll use the masculine pronoun even though I don't think "he " is male or female but for simplicity, I'll say he). Anyway, I have been angry at him for the past 6 years because I have had a hard crappy and unfair life that I don't understand., I have been so angry at him, if he were a homeless man I would have kicked him in the balls. Now, I know how terribly wrong that is but I can't help it. It is how I have been feeling for the better part of the past six years. Even though I can look around and see many other people whose situations in life are much worse then my own I can't help feeling this way. I have wrestled with this inner demon so much and finally when I am beginning to see the light at the end of the tunnel, God throws me another(albeit minor) curve ball in the form of an inexperienced supervisor who thinks that writing up people is a motivational tool at the same time I need to find a new apartment so now I will be moving in with my parents and instead of looking for a better job I will need to find any job even if it means less pay. Am I on the wrong path? If so ,God please show me the right path.
